explored-blocked off

Hey,

I miss you.

I hurt myself last weekend. Didn't know what to do. I was deep down for 48 hours. The only two things I could think of was: 1 Kill myself 2: Go to You.

Crazy stupid me decided to go with the first. But I regretted it when I started bleeding, God it was so much, so easy. So I layed down and held my hand over it.

And my appartment was filled with policemen and paramedics and I was taken to the hospital stitched up and sent to the mental institution.

I'm scared baby. I know I will never do it again but I don't know why I did it. It gets so dark when it gets dark.

Love, XXX

(Från Sjömannen)

Baby what you doing? You have a dark space inside that you have not explored-blocked off and need to release. Your crazy spirit is a gift and curse its like being taken by a wild horse. I am always here if you want to talk......I will be a son of the ocean and stars soon.....see you on the otherside! Hugs N